It's funny how fast life happens. One night you go to bed and everything's great, then you wake up to disaster. It seems that no matter how much you prepare or plan ahead, you end up riding a crazy rollercoaster full of dramatics lifts and drops. No matter how hard you hold on, you always get tossed from your seat; and the only thing you can do is respond.
           It's so hard to balance the things that really matter with the ones that don't; let go of the latter and hold on tight to the first. Unfortunately, while trying to focus on the important things, the less important ones pile up and pile up until you are buried in a deep hole. You have to set aside time to deal with the petty mistakes and aspects of your life, but while you're trying to deal with those, life is happening--and you have to be part of it. When do we get a break? When is there time to fix what's wrong, and sort through what doesn't matter?
            Seemingly, everytime you make a mistake, at least five more mistakes follow, because you didn't deal with the first one. People get hurt, they get angry, they get sad. Everyone else is affected by your decisions and you have to deal with them on top of dealing with everything that's wrong. Why isn't there a "Pause"  button for life?
            At some point, we have to man-up and be responsible. We have to deal with the things that need to be dealt with, and put aside the things we care about, but really don't matter in the long run.

One-Sided

        Of all the crazy, complicated, but incredible feelings, Love takes the cake. It feels so amazing to have that heart-racing, eye-sparkling, twitterpation whenever the thought of that special person comes up. And, the confidence that everyday, you'll have at least ONE person there to count on for a smile. Everyone strives for that feeling....And once we get it, letting it go is the hardest thing in the world. What do we do when it feels so perfect, so.......forever, but in reality, is only qone-sided? How do we handle rejection from the one thing we want? The one thing we need?
        It is so hard to find respectable, compatable, mature guys in this world of crude, violent, untasteful males. When you finally find one that doesn't kiss you on the first day, meets your mother with a boquet of flowers and plays basketball with your little brothers....you hold on to him. Everything seems to be perfect; no fights, cute surprises, acting silly and knowing he'll be just as crazy: and then you get hit with the bomb. Letting you go seems to be the easiest thing in the world for him....when it hurts you so much you can barely breathe. How can something so perfect be so....wrong? Why is it that everytime you find the thing you've wanted most, it's built up and built up, then crushed?
       There's no way to solve the problem or heal your broken heart. Even if you can see what should be happening in your head, making the thoughts turn into actions is almost impossible. What hurts the most is having your shattered heart steer the way through all of the mess; which turns out to be nearly impossible. No amount of affection from other guys can make things better, no all-night parties with the girls can take your mind off of the one you lost. Nothing seems to matter anymore, which is sad and depressing. Numbness is the only way to deal with seemingly lifeless days.
        There has to be some way to climb out of the hole we call heartbreak. No person should ever make or break us. We should always be able to pick up the pieces and put them back together. It's totally possible;it just doesn't seem that easy. Probably because it's not easy, just doable. We have to think with our minds before we think with our hearts.....